I say it, coz' I meant it.

Just go.
I will not step on your way.
Everything about me,
reminds me on you,
make me hate me,
if the only way is leaving.
Just leave. I beg.
Just go.

dear you, my dear

You made me learnt,
how to open up my mind,
to got my wings above air,
You made me believe,
everything I trusted just what I did need to.
You were the one, who let it down.
I was the one, who let it go.
I was sad, blamed myself.
I am mad, hate myself.
Try to understand, hate you is better,
but somehow, I detest everything on me.
This is the next step I've told myself.
Denial. And it is stand still.
I am mad, for everything unreasonable.
You changed me.
I choose to stay the same,
but every time I reject, it bounds to me directly.
You, the one, I beg you.
Just get away from my life.
You went, don't even look back, please.
You just don't get it. It hurts me longer.
Just go. Ya, straight forward to break my ribs.
Just go. Ya, stab me right to my heart and stop beating.
Just go. Never give me second thought to grab you back.
Just go. I am okay to be here alone.
Just go. It is the best I never know you.
Just go. I just can't control my ego.
Just go. I am mad. And I am really mad.
So, just go, go, go... I'll be okay, just like you do.

97012

It's been so long that I haven't seen your face

I am trying to be strong but the strength I have is washing away

I want to fly in the sky get into the light
You got me stuck and break a leg for you

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Tell me why'd you have to go cause this pain won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for a boy with his broken smile and ask him if he wants to stay awhile

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart~
I believe, how many time I am asking you to leave,
If you really want me, you will not move.
So I am still in silent.
Not waiting, just wondering.
Why could not I feel the feeling I used to feel.

welcome

Do I ever feel like breaking down?

Do I ever feel out of place?

Like somehow I just don't belong

and no one understands me?

Do I ever wanna run away?

Do I lock yourself in your room

with the radio turned on so loud

that no one hears I am screaming?

To be hurt to feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when I'm down

To feel like I've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

and no one there's to save me

Do I ever want somebody else's?

Am I sick of feeling poor?

Am I desperate to find the someone?

Am I stuck inside a world I hate?

Am I sick of you?

With my big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside I am bleeding.

I am enjoying~ running around the bush >.<
without realize, how am I now~

12- 06- 12

aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu,
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar aku telah terpaku oleh cintamu
menelusup hariku dengan harapan namun kau masih terdiam membisu
sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu
betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku semoga kau tau isi hatiku
dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

-ellen- to you-
when you read this, just let me know.
all I ask is just one sign, more.
to stop here where I am already dying, nor.
I just can't.

Hopeess- L insertion, please.

Dream high. Imagination. Dream high.
I am sick of this dream. Not real.

06-06-12

The story of six.six.twelve.
I have been told to open my heart~~ widely~~ wisely~~
Just ask me, I'll tell you, boy.
I am damn falling. And it won't again in a moment.
So, stay away, just a moment.
Give me a space. To take a breath.

Miss The Court

I miss~
Whenever I saw him stand in front there to support his girl,
or whatever he sat by my side to watch the game.
I am starting to regret everything that I believe I never sorry to.
Just like mom says, the fact is not easy like the theory.
And everything that I judge, just come back to me. :)

:)

I am just a beginner. Can't bring it on as everyone knows.
I did what I did, and did not mean to hurt anyone.
If it was so wrong, in the other hand, I am so sorry.
Trust me, I was, into everything I denied.

dreamed of you and its kinda of insane.

It Was

whatever I said, it was -_- it makes a little blur.

I said it was. exactly on the day, 

I said, I might THOUGHT, you WERE falling for me. hufh.

I thought, really I did.

haha. in this case, I WAS the one who falling for you.

and I AM really falling. I am falling apart.

and the next day, you found out I betrayed you on this,

on a thing like this.

just like this. because from this you believed I had not been into you.

but, you never saw this to trust I was into you.

kind of pathetic.

I am Here

I am lying alone with my head on the phone 

Thinking of you 'til it hurts 

I don't know what do I want 

Wonder why should this be 

Here, tonight I just see the flashback 

And find out how hurt 

when everybody who hates me Mocking on me 

and is it raining? Or everybody's just spitting on me 

I am running I am hiding from this moment 

Try to get out from my mind 

But it is too big to solve It is too deep to dive

Don't love you no more- Craig D

For all the years that I've known you baby I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold

If there's a problem we should work it out So why you giving me the cold shoulder now Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl

OK I know I was late again I made you mad and dinners thrown in the bin

But why are you making this thing drag on so long I wanna know I'm sick and tired of this silly game

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me I don't care babe who's right or wrong I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down Now it's, too late, to turn it around I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry I guess this time it really is goodbye You made it clear when you said I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes But never thought that things would turn out this way Cause I'm missing something now that your gone I see it all so clearly Me at the door with you in a state 

Giving my reasons but as you look away I can see a tear roll down your face That's when you turned and said to me I don't care babe who's right or wrong I just don't love you no more.

Those simple words hit so hard They turned my whole world upside down Girl, you caught me completely off guard On that night you said to me I just don't love you no more

one you and always knock me down to the dust.
feel so empty, stupid, guilty, shameful.
one you, turn me off in second,
one you, make me tore myself apart.
ask myself, why is one you.

I've promised to myself to let me call you tonight.
But, I am too afraid of being rejected.
And I just keep it close.
Why did I let you go?
Why did you let me go?
We have promised each other,
then I betrayed it. How fool was I?

:)

You know what?

Everything is gonna be fine.

Maybe not be perfect as what you dream of.

But, nothing is going wrong.

I know what are you waiting for.

Not always should come,

but trust me, whenever it makes you feel better.

Keep the hope in your life.

Even if you know how bitter it is when this ends.

Keep faithful, because you are the perfect one.

feel something's wrong around me,
but I can't figure it out.
the butterfly in my stomach's trying to go out.
feel so suffocate, can't breath and think.
I feel like I'm all out of wrong.
and nothing seems right.
I'm trying to convince myself, I'm not bullying.
Am I?
Gross.
I just complained too much, that's my problem.

Someone Like You- AdeLe

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
that for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday was the time of our lives

We were born and raised

In a summer haze

Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

that for me it isn't over.

nothing compares

No worries or cares

Regrets and mistakes

they are memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

I could feel the sun, if only.

He said to me that I won't forget you,

have you forgotten me already?

Sometimes, I wish I could sing a song to cheer we up.

Then I realized, I never learned well.

He told me to move on,

have you already moved on?

Sometimes I am still talking to your shadow in my heart.

Then I realize, how fool am I.

He asked me, how's my day,

while I was hoping you were.

How's your day?

I am too worry to be rejected.

Then I realize, I have been.

 

someone's says

Someone's ever told me this,

"I did not run from my past, I did not run from my problem.

What is the matter of you by asking it?

It will not be the same phase, It is not the same story.

I do not need to be healed. Because I never broken."

So I went to the corner in silent, then cry.

Realized, I have ever said to myself,

"To be hurt is a choice."

Everything's coming back to me, just because,

"To be special needs special doing."

And I always blame myself for,

"Only trying and never doing."

How am I supposed to - Westlf

He's a 5 foot 10 in catsuit and bambi eyes
Everybody's who's staring wouldn't believe that this boy was mine
I should have know I was wrong
When I left him for a life in pity
But they say you never miss the water until it's gone
Guess I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight

How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that?
I can't believe what I just gave away
Now I can't take it back
I don't wanna get lost
I don't wanna live my life without you
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that?

He's all dressed up for glamor and rock and roll
Wanna squeeze his real tight get out of this place
If only I could take control

But he is out of my reach forever
And just a week ago he lied next to me
It's so ironic how I had to lose just
To see that I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight


I don't wanna forget you
I don't even wanna try
How am I supposed to walk on by when you're looking like that?

How Lucky I am

Just tell the story of every scene that I've ever imagined

How lucky you are to stand still in this way Still have the sky to look at above

We have the same sky Whatever the distance tear,

The time will stop to calm our torn

Just say, how lucky I am Know that I am still here

Wonder the first day I was there And realize I am not belong to there anymore

I have had the first step There is another in the next

But I have to say this To remind me this chimes

We had it all, how lucky I am to hear the story of today

No matter what, I was not standing to see your pain

Indeed, if it never be, at least I never saw my own hurt

The type of letters, 

I am cool, I will be okay

I will be better than this

If you know what I mean

This rule of role just too complicated

And hoping, it is not a 'stream' mellow ending

 

Say how wonderful today.
Everything to worry, but indeed, I made it work. :D
No one wants to know how or why.
But trust the liar, why is not a good word,
to questioning someone's love to you.
Just open up your mind and damn, you are free.
Happy ice cream day, March.
And lets see, how dare the April to ruin something.

;)

I was not a good friend, neither am a good friend.
I could not be by your side, I was trapped in mine.
I would not stand on your way, I was struggling other.
I was not a good friend, rushed life.
I was not a good friend, wrote a live.
I was not a good friend, told stay calm.
I was there when they asked me to betrayed mine.
I was there, for you.
I was not a good one. Then they helped me out,
to showed off the world, that I was messed up with life.
I wrote this to say my sorry.
I was there, in your line, to broke your ribs.
And then stabbed your heart to stop beating.
I was there to saw your pain and tears.
You were there, never looking at me straight,
pretended nothing has happened,
then went away from this game.
And you let me lost in my battle, that I have chosen.
That was your revenge, to let me fell this broken wing.
That was yours.
They cursed me.
They took my part away, after seeing my memory,
This is decision.
Die Go To The Sea, They.

E-L-L-E-N

Take it easy, bro.
I am cool.

Just another star

I thought it is a twin moon.
The fact, it is just another star.
No expectation, it is clear. ;)

no talking about it, regulation

I am just a girl sometimes I do not know  how did I do that sometimes I wonder why would I do that

I am just a girl that do not know how wild I could be And you are just a boy who never quarrel about it

but then you will leave it behind

as it is nothing and it is really it means nothing

calm down, girl because the boy takes it easy nothing to worry it is nothing

and the girl will learn how to leave it where it should be then the boy come in

to ask the questioning question and the girl will answer the answered question

I Cried-

Do you remember
How we'd hold each other tight?
It was all I had
To get me through the night.
I can't believe that you are gone.
Everything right it all went wrong.

Do you remember
How we kissed?
You said you never felt like this.
I guess I thought it'd never end.
You know that you were my best friend.

I cried and I don't care who knows it.
I cried I ain't too proud to show it.
I cried when you said good bye.

I wonder
If you ever think of me.
Or am I just another distant memory.
And after all that we've been through
It's just so hard
To give up on you.

Dear,

A lonely road crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there, back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Well, some search never finding a way
Before long they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade

If you never told me, I never knew
If you never showed me, I never saw
If you never left me, I never learned

Bring it out my own
Tell me to wait
In the dark of possibility
Then cry out loud
For the disappointment 

Even if I want to go alone
My shadow will take forever
Even I was trying
I never doing

d' Power of Love- C. Dion

The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes

I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

Cause I'm your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
Cause I am always by your side

Cause I'm your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away