I wish I could carry your smile in my heart~
I believe, how many time I am asking you to leave,
If you really want me, you will not move.
So I am still in silent.
Not waiting, just wondering.
Why could not I feel the feeling I used to feel.

welcome

Do I ever feel like breaking down?

Do I ever feel out of place?

Like somehow I just don't belong

and no one understands me?

Do I ever wanna run away?

Do I lock yourself in your room

with the radio turned on so loud

that no one hears I am screaming?

To be hurt to feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when I'm down

To feel like I've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

and no one there's to save me

Do I ever want somebody else's?

Am I sick of feeling poor?

Am I desperate to find the someone?

Am I stuck inside a world I hate?

Am I sick of you?

With my big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside I am bleeding.

I am enjoying~ running around the bush >.<
without realize, how am I now~

12- 06- 12

aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu,
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar aku telah terpaku oleh cintamu
menelusup hariku dengan harapan namun kau masih terdiam membisu
sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu
betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku semoga kau tau isi hatiku
dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

-ellen- to you-
when you read this, just let me know.
all I ask is just one sign, more.
to stop here where I am already dying, nor.
I just can't.

Hopeess- L insertion, please.

Dream high. Imagination. Dream high.
I am sick of this dream. Not real.

06-06-12

The story of six.six.twelve.
I have been told to open my heart~~ widely~~ wisely~~
Just ask me, I'll tell you, boy.
I am damn falling. And it won't again in a moment.
So, stay away, just a moment.
Give me a space. To take a breath.

Miss The Court

I miss~
Whenever I saw him stand in front there to support his girl,
or whatever he sat by my side to watch the game.
I am starting to regret everything that I believe I never sorry to.
Just like mom says, the fact is not easy like the theory.
And everything that I judge, just come back to me. :)

:)

I am just a beginner. Can't bring it on as everyone knows.
I did what I did, and did not mean to hurt anyone.
If it was so wrong, in the other hand, I am so sorry.
Trust me, I was, into everything I denied.