Christmas Gift

I gave it to you
I was sorry if that became your Christmas gift
I never mean to hurt you
Just have decided to overed all beetwen us
Too many heavy in me if I stayed
Too many dreams for you if I held
Just said good bye dear you
My Boy one...

Just mine

I flow in my dreams...
I get all of my needs in my minds...
I never want to see the world...
I'm afraid of life...
When I killed your love...
When I hurt you...
When I left you behind...
Never call back my name...
I just trying to destroy you...

Mine...

I WANNA ALL OF PEOPLE KNOW THAT I REALLY LOVE THEM I JUST CAN'T CHOOSE ONE FOR MINE BECAUSE I ALWAYS THINKING THAT THEY ARE MINE THEY ARE IN MY MIND MY SOUL MY LIFE THEY GIVE ME BREATH TO LIVE THEY GIVE ME WISH TO HOPING THEY GIVE ME LIGHT TO SEE THEY GIVE ME HEART TO FEELING THEY GIVE ME MIND TO THINKING THEY GIVE ME LOVE THAT I NEED IN MY LIFE WHAT CAN I DO WITHOUT THEM I JUST A LITTLE DUST AMONG OTHER BIG ROCKS AND NO ONE CAN SEE ME IF I HAVE NO POWER AND SUPPORT FROM THEM I JUST WANT ALL PEOPLE TO KNOW THAT I REALLY LOVE THEM MY LOVE DEAR THEM CAN NOT PAINT IN WORDS THEY ARE SO WORTHY THERE ARE NO LETTERS AND SENTENCES TO SAY HOW BEUATIFUL MY LIFE BECAUSE OF THEM HOW PAIN MY LIFE WITHOUT THEIR SMILE I KEEP MY LOVE FOR THEM FOREVER AND EVER ^^

>.<

How could I choose when there is no choice
Just tried the best
Just need more than this
Just asked for little bit more
And how could I?
I couldn't
Trying
Needing
Asking
And the end of all
I've
Now just waiting
For all of that I've done

If I could be a perfect girl in your eyes
I would promise the world but it's out of my hands
I could only give you everything I have
I just couldn't choose beetwen two choices
To live or to leave
I'm gonna to take the easy one
But I couldn't find it yet
In the concentrate dark of love
I couldn't see your love
How could I do???
I just couldn't see your love
I just saw he was coming and said this
"I promise I would hold you trought this,
when life seems unclear, and I'll beside you."
I fell like I never measure up
To who you see...

HOW IF

Sometimes I confused with my feeling dear you
I'm thinking many times to get an answer
Every time you ask something to me
I just can't imagine how is my life without you
But I don't wanna to imagine
How is my life if I with you
All of it about how I make my love developt
And just couldn't and don't wanna
Now let you ask me thousands question about us
What can I explain to you
A bullshit? I'm a liar
Can't you understand and know that?
I just playing with your heart and mind
You and I on the different way
I hope will be like this forever
Because I needn't you
I dislike everytime we shared together
Them kill me slowly and hurt me
Them make my mind out of controls
And all of it because of you
I just need time to alone think about myself
Have no time to see you or to love you
I don't wanna to meet you and connect with yout love
Why can't you leave behind you
And find someone else
Who loves you needs you and cares about you
I'm not yours
And never be....

He and I

On the different way...

If I can see his pain

I will cry for him

If I can know his hurt

I will pray for him

If I can feel what he is feeling

maybe I can help him

to solve his problem

to share the day together

but, he and I

on the different way

can't meet on one point

and we can't see each other

YOU!!!!!!!!!

YOU WENT AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

...Just Me...

Call my name please...
So I know you are there and I'm not alone.













In the dark just with my shadows live with silent
Can not be like this for long time
I need you, your heart, your mind
I'm here waiting for you and never leaving
But why, you tried to lie me?
But why, you are triying to leave me?
You hurt me, you know it...
And always know,
So, if I go away from our way never try to get me back
Because 'Sorry' always at behind
You can't see it if I'm here
I hide it, just if I go, you can see it
You will be with it, forever...

I don't know anything!

And I never want to know!

That you left me, you really left me, why can't you see???

I was standing by your side and hoping so much.

I never care 'bout sunny or rainy, I just waiting for you.

I need you, I want you! Past, now, and forever!

Whay can't you see me?????

Just look into my eyes, and find the love that I keep dear you,

I really love you in my deepest heart.

Until now, I wish you can understand it.

Just give your heart to me, I will keep it forever...

On the name of love, on the name of my life...

BROKEN HEART

In dark of love

Concentrate of love

How can I hold on

I'm alone in here

I can't do anything

Because I don't wanna

To think anythink

I want him

But,

He just left me

And I want to ask

What's my false

Am I wrong

If I leave all boys

Who like me

Oh, just be a arogant girl

Selfish

And never care anything

There is someone

who will promise

If I call back all of the poor boys

I will get him again

I need answer

I want decided

To leave or to love, I take

Goodniss

Without him

I can make my world

Fully of blood

Crying

Dissapointed

Give up

Dead

In the fact

Maybe I was dreaming

I have ever walked

By his side

I'd to stay there

Never left the time

And never lost him

Is this the feeling

Of broken heart???

My Best Friends

just keep in love, I found miracle

I need everything to make me happy

I just keep in believe that I can get him

In my mind

I never care anything other,

and in the fuck fact I couldn't catch all of respect

I just stay in my dream world playing with word

never know that people beside me never love me

I believe in you, and I want the trust

I worth you as my best friends

and I never wanna know that you've ever hate me

just keep in love

I really love you all

without my king and queen of life,

almost of my time I spend with you

you give me hope and tommorow

you make me believe that I must stay with you

and I believe in it, but in the fuck fact I want trust

I'm wrong, never think about what is happening arround me

just walking by my self and go to the hell

be honest, friends...

I'm with you, keep in love,

I always think, with you, save

and I do all things so I can stand by your side

be honest, I really need you all, I love you all

just keep in love, friends...

without you all in the fuck fact

I'm a poor guy, that have no value

You and I in this world

just keep in love....

I'm sorry, Prince of Love

I've hurt your heart

I'm sorry, Prince of Love

I've torn your soul

I'm sorry, Prince of Love

I've broken your dream

I just stay in the cool of Love

I just stay in the dark of Love

I just stay in my mind about Love

I'm not a Pincess of Love

I'm not a Princess of Love

I'm not a Princess of Love

Who I Want To Meet:

In this world I never dream to meet anybody who can make me happy, I just keep in wish I can find someone can give me his heart with love, don't care I'll cry because of him.I'm afraid I'll lost anything that I have had now, I'm afraid I can't fight with life and get love...I'm scared of lose, I never wanna feel what is it have nothing and nobody. I am just I, that can't give you anything to makesure you that I really love you and all of you does.I don't care who you are, where you from, what you did, because I have ever promised, I'd stay here to waiting for you.Under the rain, I call your name,in the night, I dream 'bout you,beside busy, I'm thinking of you,and whatever I'll call it, it never change, it's love wich I care dear you.I just a little girl, I don't understand anything about all things that I call LOVE. I just play with words, they just go out from my heart and my mind, I just type it so you can read it and you'll remember about me, 'bout our time together, about all of our wishes.Everyday, when the sun shining, I pray to God, I wanna meet him today to guide me share the day...

....................................................................................................

How can I explain it???
I feel like a stupid girl, they make me so fool
ehm2, okay, if I have made him angry
okay, if I have hurt her heart with all my stupid mistakes
but, I'm trying to repair all of it
never make me feel like this, cos
I'M GOING TO HATE YOU ALL FOREVER

That's Why

I dont't know what can I do with you.

In our time together,

you always return away your face from me.

Just see into my eyes

and find my love dear you...

THINKING AND FEEL !!!

I'm walking arround and I find something that I think can help me out from my problems. I think it's the best idea... I just see to in front of, and triying to forget the past. Okay, that's a really big decided. But, I haven't choice again, can you see? I'm in the box of fear. All my do, really a big false.

I want to say to my friend, I know what do you think about me. Maybe I'm not your friend, in your mind. But, I know you as my friend, that's always say all things to me, and in my reality, I never can refuse them.

Now, you go into my life, but so far, friend. I don't wanna people like you disturb my life, so, just let me alone. I needn't you. You just make me in the dark.

Mine and Yours

I never care 'bout how my life will just flow....

But, I can't still in quite when someone controls my life.

Just think and thinking again, I'm not alone, too many people beside me, and I know they haven't felt how hard to breath when they are walking with me yet...Okay, now we're friend, but, one or two days again, I'll never know, what will happen with our friendship. Because in your eyes I'm just a poor guy that never can make you feel have a perfect friend.Never.

I just can't understand my mind, about, you, you, you, you, you, and you.

Always you, in your shadows my picture there....

And in me, you're my draw...

Ehm2!

Okay, I think, I have made a stupid mistake... Ehm, I don't know, but something inside my heart, that's like a liar in me. I haven't any word that can say, what I feel now...

Just,

Mmm..o'o... I'm a poor girl, and I flow in the crazy life, haloww....!!

Any body hear me????

Tommorrow I'm going for a dating, I don't care what do you think about it, I really don't know what I did, I'm only say "yes," a simple word to destroy all of mine.

Hei, you! Listen to me. I have a new friend who want to... You know what I mean without I must say. And, I feel so comfort just if talking with him. I'm not talking about "B", I'm talking about my new guy... O'o...

It's complicated. But, be honest, I have fun.. ;)

When_die

I'll die, I think...

I don't know what is happening now... I met a lot of crazy people.

That make me crazy too, with all of my hard dreams.

okay, just look around, I can't find someone that can help me. I just flow in the crazy life.

I want to fight, but I can't. I can't fight love. That's so strong. And I'am only a poor girl.

Need you, beside me, but, you never care 'bout it, you let me go, honey... You give me room to have a lot of boyfriend.

Don't you see? I can't without you. I'm here for you, because I am yours.

All of them make me feel...

I want go away, this is not my place, this is not my life.

Because, I never lose before!

I never lonely before! I never weak and destroy before!!!!! I'm crying, just cry... no one see it, no one looking for me! no one cares 'bout me! Just like you! I'm tired to live, I'm thirsty of love, I'm scared of life... Because, I haven't you...

I only need you, no others...

Come back for me, before I'm diying...

or, you'll back when I die???

Come Back!!!

ehm, okay...
my holiday has finished... Hufh
so hard, i feel
i miss my family
i miss our time together
i really feel lonely for this moment
and i hope,
this feeling can go away quickly

today, i meet him
i was so sorry
i couldn't have much time with him
i just couldn't see him for along time
i decided
i will let him go
yeah,...
in his eyes...
you can see
a hurt
that i drew
oh, God...
forgive me,
i'm full of sin,
i kill a love, i think

now, i come back
in my school life,
i'll have no time to build my imagination
so,
i'll stopping thinking of you for a while
l'm triying, okay?

hmmm.... My Family,
i love you so much
i'm sorry for all my stupid mistakes
when i was with you....

miss you all, and you...

now,
i have a lot of time to dreaming
about my future
about my life
about you...
never in my life
i feel like this
my imagination
really controls my life
my mind can't fight again
my mind just flow
in my image river

am i crazy?
i just swim in my world
and i want to stay here forever
i don't care anything
because
who's care about me??
no one...
i'm lonely
with my imagination only
just with you,
my prince...