HOW IF

Sometimes I confused with my feeling dear you
I'm thinking many times to get an answer
Every time you ask something to me
I just can't imagine how is my life without you
But I don't wanna to imagine
How is my life if I with you
All of it about how I make my love developt
And just couldn't and don't wanna
Now let you ask me thousands question about us
What can I explain to you
A bullshit? I'm a liar
Can't you understand and know that?
I just playing with your heart and mind
You and I on the different way
I hope will be like this forever
Because I needn't you
I dislike everytime we shared together
Them kill me slowly and hurt me
Them make my mind out of controls
And all of it because of you
I just need time to alone think about myself
Have no time to see you or to love you
I don't wanna to meet you and connect with yout love
Why can't you leave behind you
And find someone else
Who loves you needs you and cares about you
I'm not yours
And never be....