Right Here, Right Now

When my dad said

'What I have to do' I did.

When my mom hated

'What I have done' I stop doing.

My dad tells me what to do,

I'm going to never do.

My mom asks me to stop once again,

I still doing.

Is this the time?

When I can say, rebel age...

Refuse anything when I fell I was refused.

Dislike anything when I think I was disliked.

A part of me, a pardon.

A worthy of values. Keep inside.

Where?

Onto mine.

To much lie, too much cry.

Do I want to die?

I lost my felling to alive.

But, I'm not ready yet.

Let I walk along the street.

By myself to think about my life, once.

Els-

But, I Have No

No reason to stop loving you... Thought... Somebody else came between us, I was trying to understand that you were not for me. I love you. Damn. But, I could not leave anything behind. I wanted to say good bye before you did it. I wanted to hurt you before you did it to me. Damn. In fact, I let you did all of it to me. And, I am still hoping so much. I love you. Damn. I asked to myself, what is the reason of this? But, I have no reason to kill my heart too. Here, keep waiting for you. Damn. You came back to me, when she left you. I said, I'm waiting for you. I love you. I accepted you in my life as the greatest grace. Damn. All of my happiness I brought in front of you. Hope you never go again. Because I have no, I have no reason to guide you next to me. Because I have no, no right to save you by myself only. I love you. Damn. You left me behind, over, over, over. Because you have no swear dear me, because I have no rule about this relation. Damn. I am too proud to lose. I am to shy to ask. Do you ever love me? Inside of yours, I have no, no place, no time, no, no, nothing... Damn. I love you. Now, let the reality brings you back to her. And I am waiting for the dreams again...